Free To Be

What happens when you stay silent for so long that it starts to suffocate you? When you protect others at the expense of your own peace?

For years, I’ve held things in. I stayed quiet to keep the peace, to avoid conflict, to make sure other people were comfortable. I didn’t want to stir the pot, didn’t want to bring up old wounds. But while I was protecting everyone else… who was protecting me?

That question has been sitting with me. While I was carrying the weight of everyone’s feelings, making sure they weren’t hurt, making sure they didn’t feel uncomfortable, I never stopped to ask—what about me? What about the things I’ve been holding onto that have been hurting me?

The truth is, I’ve been wrestling. Wrestling with silence. Wrestling with emotions that I’ve stuffed down so deep just to keep moving forward. But silence doesn’t heal. It only builds pressure. And I’ve reached the point where I can’t carry it anymore.

I don’t want to hurt anyone. I don’t want to be messy. But I also don’t want to keep living in a way that makes me feel like I’m suffocating under the weight of unspoken pain. Because here’s the thing—your healing is just as important as anyone else’s comfort.

John 8:36 says, “So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed.” But how can I walk in that freedom if I’m still shackled by the fear of speaking my truth?

So, here’s my commitment—to myself, to GOD, and to anyone listening who might be feeling this too. I am choosing freedom. I am choosing to let go of the fear of what others might think. I am choosing to step fully into my truth, knowing that GOD has called me to something greater.

And if you’re out there today, struggling with the weight of silence, I want to encourage you—ask yourself, while I’m protecting everyone else, who is protecting me? And if the answer is no one, then it’s time to start protecting yourself. It’s time to release, to heal, and to step into the freedom that GOD has promised you.