The Conviction of Going Back

There’s a certain weight that hits your spirit when you go back to something you know GOD already told you to leave. It’s heavy. It’s uncomfortable. It’s that quiet but loud voice that says, "You know better."

I’ve felt that. More than once. That conviction that doesn’t let you rest. That feeling when you’re trying to make something work that GOD already broke off.

See, going back isn’t just about disobedience—it’s about not trusting that what’s ahead is better than what’s behind. It’s about choosing comfort over calling.

When Going Back Feels Easier

Let’s be real. Moving forward is scary. It’s unknown. It requires faith. But going back? That feels familiar. It’s what we know. It’s what we’ve figured out how to survive in.

I’ve gone back to jobs, back to people, back to situations just because I didn’t want to deal with the discomfort of starting over. But every time, that conviction hit. That tug in my spirit that said, "This isn’t it. You’re settling again."

GOD doesn’t bring conviction to shame us—HE brings it to remind us. Remind us of the promise, the calling, the freedom HE already gave us.

The Cost of Comfort

Comfort has a cost. It might feel good for a minute, but it’ll rob you of peace. That’s what going back does—it steals the joy of what GOD is trying to lead you into.

I’ve had to sit with that. I’ve had to face the fact that going back was easier because I didn’t fully trust that GOD’s plan was better. I thought maybe I could handle it on my own, maybe I could fix it, maybe this time would be different.

But every time I went back, it got harder. The conviction got stronger. The grace for that place ran out.

I thank GOD for conviction. Because it could’ve been silence. It could’ve been HIM letting me stay stuck. But instead, HE loved me enough to interrupt me. To pull on my heart and remind me, "You don’t belong here anymore."

Conviction is HIS way of saying, "Come back to ME." Not back to the situation, but back to HIS plan. Back to HIS will. Back to the freedom that’s waiting when we let go of what HE already told us to leave.

I’m learning that moving forward means burning the bridge behind me. No more going back. No more testing the waters of what I know. GOD is doing a new thing, and I can’t keep holding onto old seasons hoping they’ll feel different.

Conviction isn’t there to punish me—it’s there to push me forward.

“As a dog returns to his own vomit, so a fool repeats his folly.” – Proverbs 26:11

Have you gone back to something GOD already told you to leave? Sit with that. Pray on it. Let conviction do its work—not to tear you down, but to call you higher. Trust that what’s ahead is worth letting go of what’s behind.